Pissed!

     If you know me or have spent any time here, you know I don't sit and rip on my ex wife.  Well, not officially 'ex' legally, but I'm hoping sooner rather than later.  Our next court 'date' (LOL) is February 1.  Anyway, the weekend really sucked, but Monday topped it.

     So, I never cheated on my ex, in 18 years.  She was the one who got caught talking to and 'having dinner' with someone else.  She's also the one with rich parents who paid for her legal team and bought her a house in San Antonio, three blocks away from them.  Oh, she is also the one who doesn't work...daddy is paying her bills.  I got jammed with making the payments on the house until it sells (insert expletive here) as alimony.  In June I got the house payment lowered from 1950 to 1150 through mortgage assistance.  So, I take home about 2700./mo.  House is 1150 and there's about 7-800 a month for power, gas, trash, cell, auto ins, additional ins on van, water.  So, I usually look at 7-800 a month for gas, food and other expenses.  When I make it, I barely make it.

     I found a package on the porch from the mortgage co yesterday.  Stuck it in my bag and took it with me to work today.  School is out for holidays, so I figured I'd have the place to myself.  I loaded the van with a load of trash to dump out off of 146.  I drive all the way out there only to find out the place is closed Sunday AND Monday...there's a huge waste of gas.  Went back to the school and had taken my laundry to work on.  I finished some reports, and take out the mortgage stuff.  I am really pleased to see that in the approval of our mortgage assistance request, the final program they put us, errrrrrrr ME on, was to make the payment 1550/mo.  I called them up and of course, the guy I need isn't there.  I called my lawyer, who I haven't paid yet...was supposed to pay him outta money I made on the house. (insert string of expletives here).  He knows I live as close as it gets.  He told me to see if my ex would work with me on the payment.  LOL...she is quick to point out to anyone that I am 'ordered by the court' to pay the mortgage payment or I'll be in contempt!!!  I told my lawyer what her responce would be.  He said the court can order anything they want, but if you can't do it, you can't do it.

     I have a little hope that in talking to the mortgage company, they will work something out with me.  Did I say 'little hope'? Actually, that's a lie.  I paid the dec payment, and am in week one of five weeks till we get paid again.  I may continue to pay the 1150 regardless of what the mortgage co says.  Then it will look like I was doing all I could to keep the house.  On the other hand, if the mortgage co comes and takes the house, I will have wasted that money.  Then I'll have to face contempt charges even though she gets her 1300/mo automatically.  If I'm in jail and not working, will I get more contempt charges for not paying child support?  Can't really imagine anyone putting me in jail where I couldn't work, but I'm learning anything and everything is possible. 

     So, its a fairly horrible start to what I had already figured would be a very tough week.  The kids come Saturday, so I am by myself this week.  I don't think its good for David to be by himself that much at one time.  There aren't too many people I'd want to hang with, and the few I want to hang with...well, its just too complicated.  Shock, right?

Unconditionally,
I love you!
dave